What is Guilt Worth?

As you may know I have been reading The Secret of Bee, and I really enjoy Kidd's style of writing. I am not going to lie, I find it to be quite dramatic. Between you and I... I think I like it. I'm going to give you an example of what I mean. “People who think that dying is the worst thing don’t know a thing about life,” (2 Kidd) To me this was a lot to take in. This to me is different considering this novel isn't all so serious. Even though I read this line almost 3 days ago it's still boggling around in my mind. Lets be honest, there is almost nothing close to the despair that the death of someone import in your life (or even the thought of you dying yourself) can generate. Right?

Wrong. Sue Monk Kidd never really gives you an answer to this. I think that's why it bothers me so much is because it made me think, and I had to investigate and find my own answer. Special shout out to Sue Monk Kidd for making me contemplate this for the longest time I ever have for a book. Thanks for the motivation; thanks for the uniqueness; thanks for getting me involved. And after about an hour of self deprivation and every drop of thought I had, i came to the conclusion that its guilt. This whole time it was guilt. 

I later saw this“This is what I know about myself. She was all I wanted. And I took her away,” (8 Kidd). She describes how she wanted everyone to live when the shooting that killed her mom took place. She wouldn't have said this if she didn't feel guilt. She would make it nearly as paced or dramatic if she didn't feel this way. Why else would you beat yourself up over that? So I now strongly believe that she was originally describing how guilt over someones death can be worse than the actual death of the person, in this case her mother. And therefore I was able to the way that she felt about the devastation that guilt can have on someones life. And I'm not going to lie I'm glad I finally came up with a reasonable explanation. Please tell me that made sense.

Research on Sue Monk Kidd

After reading the fault in our stars and doing research on John Green, I noticed that I actually had a better time reading the book after I felt that I knew the author and I could connect with him. So therefore I'm going to get started and do some research on Sue Monk Kidd. I'll Be right back... Hold on.. Almost done.. Like one more minute...Done. Alright so she was born in Georgia on August 12th and has always had a love for writing. When she was younger she dream't of writing fiction. Her most popular novel is The Secret of Bees, although she has written another book called The mermaid Chair. Before she did this she became a nurse because that is what her family wanted. As far as my research has shown its seems as if she's an inspiration; a motivator; a create your own path kind of person. She had a lot more to her than just writing novels.

"Despite the success and acclaim she enjoyed writing spiritual nonfiction, Kidd’s desire to write fiction begged to be fulfilled. Refusing to give in to her fear of failure, she immersed herself in the process of writing fiction by taking a graduate writing course and attending various writers’ conferences." This shows her personal strength, her personal ambition, her personal dedication. This is just one of the few things I found that people said about her and it makes me realize the kind of person she can be. She has the characteristics of a history changer. If that makes any sense. Anyways I think now is as good a time as ever to wrap this up. I enjoyed researching her and I hope my positive outlook on her will give me a positive outlook on her novel.

Starting the Secret life of Bees

So far I know that this book takes place in South Carolina but for now it takes place in cozy house in the summer. The author uses a lot of detail to describe the setting. For example just on page one she states,"During the day I heard them tunneling through the walls of my bedroom sounding like a radio tuned to static in the next room, and I imagined them in there turning the walls into honey- combs, with honey seeping out for me to taste." (1 Kidd) I only had one thought when I read this. Wow. She used similes and imagery while also describing the setting all in one sentence. This sentence is like the ultimate multi-tasker, it could be doing backflips on a rope while on the phone and eating a bagel. I think this is part of the reason I chose this book, considering that I am not a fan of reading anyways, the book needs to be interesting, and I can assure you just that sentence is interesting.

Another reason I chose this book is actually quite unique. So what's one of the first things you notice on a book? The Title. When I saw the secret life of bees I was really confused. Um... why would anyone want to write about that? Let alone read it. I am partly reading it because I want to know how or why the author came up with this title for a book about a girl finding more about her mother who was unfortunately killed. I still haven't found out, and this is different from all the other books I read. For example, in the hunger games you almost immediately find out what "The Hunger Games" actually is. Its making me almost furious that I cant make a connection yet between the book and it's title. But hey, I'll take any motivation I can get.