What is Guilt Worth?

As you may know I have been reading The Secret of Bee, and I really enjoy Kidd's style of writing. I am not going to lie, I find it to be quite dramatic. Between you and I... I think I like it. I'm going to give you an example of what I mean. “People who think that dying is the worst thing don’t know a thing about life,” (2 Kidd) To me this was a lot to take in. This to me is different considering this novel isn't all so serious. Even though I read this line almost 3 days ago it's still boggling around in my mind. Lets be honest, there is almost nothing close to the despair that the death of someone import in your life (or even the thought of you dying yourself) can generate. Right?

Wrong. Sue Monk Kidd never really gives you an answer to this. I think that's why it bothers me so much is because it made me think, and I had to investigate and find my own answer. Special shout out to Sue Monk Kidd for making me contemplate this for the longest time I ever have for a book. Thanks for the motivation; thanks for the uniqueness; thanks for getting me involved. And after about an hour of self deprivation and every drop of thought I had, i came to the conclusion that its guilt. This whole time it was guilt. 

I later saw this“This is what I know about myself. She was all I wanted. And I took her away,” (8 Kidd). She describes how she wanted everyone to live when the shooting that killed her mom took place. She wouldn't have said this if she didn't feel guilt. She would make it nearly as paced or dramatic if she didn't feel this way. Why else would you beat yourself up over that? So I now strongly believe that she was originally describing how guilt over someones death can be worse than the actual death of the person, in this case her mother. And therefore I was able to the way that she felt about the devastation that guilt can have on someones life. And I'm not going to lie I'm glad I finally came up with a reasonable explanation. Please tell me that made sense.